I cant brain today...I have the dumb

why oh why

2006-06-26T02:33:00.000-07:00

yo yo. been a real long time since i posted. been workin on 2 songs and another 2 rhymes. the other 3 are 80% complete. heres the 1st song. dedicated to tania n every1 thats gonna miss her. its called "why oh why".

1st verse :
shes here right now but how long will that last
soon her smile el be a thing of the past
its gettin quiet without her here
gettin lonelier without her near
shes goin, goin so far away
already driftin further everyday
its gonna be this way for a while
for all of us it just got harder to smile

chorus :
why oh why do you have to go
so far away from us back home
why oh why does it have to be this way
why is it that you just cant stay

2nd verse :
whered she go, the halls miss her presence
happened so fast cant seem to make sense
here one minute, gone the next
cant come to terms, its like a test
how long will she be gone
cant say for sure but i know itl be long
wish i could say that im happy for you
but its a lie that anyone could see right through
cant think of anyone that wants you to leave
and your time left here is way to brief
if only you could stay just a lil longer
a lil while before you cross those borders
but we know that really alot to ask
so the best we can do is make these times last

chorus :
why oh why do you have to go
so far away from us back home
why oh why does it have to be this way
why is it that you just cant stay

bridge :
so this is pretty much our final goodbye
smile for all the good times, dont start to cry
if you need us, we'll always be here
right behind you, uv got nothin to fear
ur friends back home will keep you in their hearts
so just do the same and we'll never be apart

chorus :
why oh why do you have to go
so far away from us back home
why oh why does it have to be this way
why is it that you just cant stay

touching aint it?

heart stopper

2006-05-04T20:06:00.000-07:00

found it! i like this one...wrote it some time ago.. it doesnt really have a title. I edited it a bit...well, alot actually.. thank god this blog isnt too public.

Girl i gotta tell you, jus cant get you off my mind,
im thinkin bout you everyday, every second, all the time,
you're the one that can bring a smile to my face,
a smile from you and its like im floating in outer space,
so many things that i just cant say,
these feelings just wont go away,
just come on and open up to me,
just give me a chance and i promise il set you free,
from any of your pain and misery,
just one chance girl, thats all i need.
it may seem hard to believe but i swear,
i know i dont look it but believe me i care,
dont ask me why,
but theres no way in hell id ever let you cry,
i feel a tug at my heart everytime you walk away,
im left standin where i am not knowing what to say,
you'll never know the pain i feel when we're apart,
so girl, help me find the path that leads straight to your heart.....

guys..you better not steal this!

stay strong

2006-04-28T21:40:00.000-07:00

i wrote this for someone a couple months ago. not sure of the date. i got real irritated after i lost it. bit i found it again and here it is. dedicated to aurelia ann valentina. but since this rhyme is alredi a couple months old or so its kinda outdated. hehe. but il post it anyway.

the tears have just stopped their descent
her beautiful eyes glowin like the moon
tryin best to let her heart mend
hopefully it would be sometime soon

her eyes reflect the sorrow
that is bottled up inside
no idea what may come tomorrow
cheeks still wet from the tears she cried

shes prayin for it to stop
for it to go away
will it work or will it not
before she starts to go astray

save me, she cries
she just wants to be alone tonight
she doesnt want the sun to rise
she just wants it all to be alright

but she strong
she cant give in
she knows she can hold on
and she might just win

just keep smiling
cuz angels arent meant to cry
let all the laughter come out of hiding
and let all that sorrow pass you by

ur beautiful and you know it
just free that great smile
youve got it, flaunt it, show it
even if it takes a while

enjoy.

freestyle pt 1

2006-04-28T20:56:00.001-07:00

hmm.. realised that i havent written bout the shit that happened this year. so i wrote about it. this is freestyle. came to me a couple nights ago. it aint got a title. so i guess its just freestyle part 1.

so much for callin ourselves friends
hope ur happy with the way this shit ends
did you think i would just sit through all the shit you gave me?
at first i would, but it happened too fuckin frequently
and dont try to act all sorry
cuz right now i dont see an ounce of sincerety
exactly what the hell am i to you?
pray tell cuz i dont have a fuckin clue
some kind of toy that can be stored
picked up only when ur feelin bored
thrown away and forgotten when ur all done
or am i just somethin you use to vent ur anger on?
why dont ya just say it to my face cuz i wud reli like to know
bit its too late so i guess its just a plain no
bet you thought i wouldnt make a sound
that you could go ahead n put me down
if this is how you wanna treat me weve got nothin more to say
and if you cant face me now just turn the fuck away

fuck off =)

2006-04-09T00:59:00.000-07:00

ok.. wasnt in a very good mood when i wrote this.. did it in like 5 minutes... didnt have anythin better to do or write... this is more like a hate rap... call it err.... "fuck off?"

cant you just freakin leave me alone
before i decide to start breakin some bones
trust me dawg you dont wanna see me mad
il enjoy chokin you with anythin, from strings to a rag
whoop ur ass and knock the air oughta ya chest
break 3 of ur ribs n fuckin mutilate the rest
lcik you while ur on the ground and watch you squirm
stomp n squish you like you were a fuckin worm
cut you up and watch the flow of blood
dont get me wrong, its not like i dont like you, i hate you, period
watch ur stomach while my blade slides right in
im'a use you as a fuckin pin cushion
break ur legs and then ur arm
i'd do it so gracefully u'd think it was a charm
knock ur teeth to the back of ur head
walk away whistlin while ur lyin there dead
when im after you ur gonna be prayin for rest
fear me like you fear god cuz i bring death
beggin for mercy aint gonna work
have fun in hell while i wash the blood off my shirt!

peace out

soulles

2006-03-20T04:47:00.000-08:00

hmm....jus found this when i was cleanin my room... i think i wrote it some time ago. cant exactly remember when. but i only took the second stanza... i wrote the rest like..now. haha. ah well, the more sensitive side of me. lol... its pretty much bout sadness n shit. ciao. its called "soulles" by the way...

an arrow strikes my heart
sorrowness fills my head
the eyes have lost their spark
now they look more dead

so much that iv been through
barely can compare
and theres nothin i can do
to stop the flowing despair

the laughter has gone
frowns begin to show
sadness slowly catches on
the smile has lost its glow

neither sun nor rain
nor darkness or snow
can wash away the pain
when its as black as a crow

its like being pierced by a blade
its all in the mind
but the hurt will soon fade
all in due time

kelly's fantasy

2006-03-18T06:39:00.000-08:00

ok. this 1 i wrote for kelly. it started after she told me in da comp lab that she loved to fantasize. I call it kelly's fantasy =)

I wake up everymorning and I go to school
wishing I could be lazing beside a pool
with a chocolate ice-cream in one hand
and the other wavin to the members of my favourite band

but im stuck doin work on a sunny afternoon
softly hummin the sounds of my favourite tune
oh, how I wish I could live in one of my dreams
feel like jumpin up and down and i just wanna scream

help me
im lost inside my dreams
am I still in reality
or is this one of my fantasies?
save me
im fallin in love with what i see
the one place where I can feel free
I wanna stay here, in my fantasy

in my fantasies, I can run my own world
live in castles made up of diamonds and pearls
or I could be a celebrity with my own private jet
fly from paris to london and all the way back
I could have ryan cabrerra sing for me
after I finish one of my shopping sprees
I'd be able to shop all day
buy everything thats on display
eat food fit for a king
while my fingers are covered with gold and silver rings
il even have orlando bloom
waitin down the aisle for me as my groom
oh, how I wish I could live in one of my dreams
feel like jumpin up and down and i just wanna scream

help me
im lost inside my dreams
am I still in reality
or is this one of my fantasies?
save me
im fallin in love with what i see
the one place where I can feel free
this is me
and this is my fantasy

dark child...

2006-03-18T06:33:00.000-08:00

hey. wrote this for yi ling a few months ago...

its called - "dark child..." lol

The clock strikes midnight
Others are asleep
She's awake, she lives for the night
Lost in her thoughts that run deep

So many things on her mind
Time has lost all meaning
She wants to go back, rewind
But she knows its no use dreaming

Yi Ling is her name
Special by all means
In her eyes dance the flames
And behind those, lie her dreams

Pretty and quick-witted
As untamed as a stallion
Sharp and extremely gifted
She's truly one in a million

But know she's troubled
By what, very few know
One thing isn't yet settled
"Why?" she wonders, as she watches the moon glow

Can't get him out of her head
Amazed at how she can cope
Laying wide awake on her bed
Holding on to whatever hope

But she won't just give up
She won't just give in
Not even if she gets stuck
Not even when her chances are slim

Keep on going
She won't lose herself to this
There will be no tears flowing
As her lips await the kiss

cant brain 1

2006-03-18T06:12:00.000-08:00

yo..wrote this sometime ago.. im still lookin for all my rhymes.. lost most of them i think.
anyway, here it is. i call it....cant brain 1 =) hehe

if ever i leave and you start to miss my sarcasm
jus go to josh or ling and throw shit at em
im sure theyll give you the response that you deserve
which actually is usually onli reserved
for me so i wont comment
on really how much torment
that they can give you
so just watch out for those two
hey, dont hate me for that k?
iv been incredibly bored this whole day!
lets go to akil my main man
sorry me and her didnt go accordin to plan
but you still got your girl and thats all that matters
im still a playa whose head is wanted on a silver platter
akmal, my brother from another mother
we'll see eachother again, one day or the other
kelly, macha whats the use of a phone
if ur not gonna use it when ur bored at home
kei, you still owe me a present!
want me to start beggin with an accent?
yes i know you still have somthin of mine
and shes not thinkin so get that oughta ur mind
pat, you still owe me alot of stuff
havent i been waiting long enuff?
mae, was nice to bug you again after so long
though i think i prefer sweetcakes than dong dong
tania, maybe we are jinxed but who cares?
soon enuff we'll be sittin on those cinema chairs
su ling, the angel, izzy, too tall
have fun in aussie, goodbye once and for all
michelle, michy
a.k.a lil miss hottie
the hippo rocks so keep it close
pink top or jeans skirt? maybe even both
this is my way of appreciatin all of you
but it doesnt mean im done givin you shit to go through
dont take this as a goodbye
just a little reminder of how fast time can fly
somethin to remind us that nothin will last
soon this rhyme will be another thing of the past
one day we wont see eachother anymore
just so you know, all of you will alwayz be woclome on my door

2006-03-18T05:37:00.000-08:00

hey ppl...

thinking kills brain cells!